tonight I practice reciting what happened  :  admitting the why of it all  :  out loud now so I can grow heavy again  :  my aim is to settle : once I was obsessed with learning levitation : living above eyelevel : transcending anatomical systems : each word fell heavy on my carpet : digestive/nervous/endocrine  :  I slicked my throat with Nyquil : slept early so I’d swallow nothing else : made my tongue mothwing : coaxed my pelvis into ghost : I thinned my skin    to    a    pillowcase    &    hovered

above  the  bed  every  night   :   it  was

not at all like flight : no flapping or gliding : no outside source of propulsion   :   it   was   taking   in   one

long   breath    :   taking   nothing   in   :

until I became the mouthopening  : until even the gravity of a body couldn’t hold me